because you just don't care anymore
You're too numb to care
That was my brother everyday
Now it's me
I'm to numb to care
I'm at the point in my life where I don't know
what to do anymore
Depression is like forgetting the words to your favorite song
It seems I have tried everything
To feel
And not to feel
Because everything just hurts so much
But isn't it so much worse not to feel?
To be numb
I have put my feelings into everything I have ever done
and now it seems I have run dry
Medication is the only thing balencing my brain
Medication and you
What a terrible mix
It's hard for me to feel Paris
Because I have a hard time feeling at all.
I think I can't feel.
Yet something as simple as thinking about hats can pull this out of me.
I am the definition of contradicting
Am I weird for thinking maybe numb IS better?
ReplyDeleteI don't know
But I do know I liked this.
Thank you! I'm still deciding myself about numbness
DeleteNumb can be so scary, speaking from experience.
ReplyDeleteThis post is lovely, tying it into hats is impressive. Good job.
Thank you!
Delete"But isn't it so much worse not to feel?
ReplyDeleteTo be numb
I have put my feelings into everything I have ever done
and now it seems I have run dry"
Those lines stood out to me a lot, great post