When I am gone, release me

Bricks can come in many shapes and sizes
we all hope for the day when we can fit them into our little circle holes
and be done with them

With suicide
it's like trying to fit a square block into a circle hole
it just doesn't fit

He was a light, and was terribly behaved
with a booming voice that filled a room
he loved to make others laugh
he was there for the people everyone else has given up on

They say there are steps to grief
but I'm only on step one
not sure how I'm going to make it to step two

Maybe one day I will find a place for this brick
but as of right now
I'm just not there yet