For the pain we both were in
But
I'm not sorry
If I never felt the air knocked out of me
I never would have the sweet feeling of breath in my lungs
If I never felt my body starve
I never would love myself like I do now
If marks never scratched my veins
I wouldn't have the coping skills I do now
If he never died
I wouldn't value life like I do now
If I never fell
I never would of learned how to fly
If I never had my brain kill me from the inside out
I would never appreciate how beautiful life can be
If I never felt the knives of pure anxiety
I never would have my 4.0
If I never fought with demons
I never could be this strong
If I never felt what it was like to be so so alone
I wouldn't love people like I do now
You cannot have rainbows without a little rain
Wins and losses live inside me
yet I don't always view them as losses
You say you don't exist in my happy world
I believe you always have
I relate to a lot of this personally and it makes me really appreciate your words. Wins and losses.
ReplyDeletei really like this. i hope one day i'll be able to be grateful for my losses
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