i have no idea how i passed creative writing
it is so hard to write anything
so hard to get my thoughts onto paper
so real in my head
but when i try to get it out ......
maybe i forgot
everything is so deep and locked inside me
i would rather stalk your social media and reassure myself you're not evil
when i drank too much and don't even know when my head hit the pillow
why didn't anyone call the police? ...
why didn't i?
maybe i forgot
what was the last date justin went on? because i had to bail
and my soul will never let me forget that
i remember sitting in creative writing
in a hoodie
hoping
that something might change
maybe i forgot
is it easier to be angry or sad?
because if it's sad, then i have always taken the easier way out
and i'm sitting
in my kitchen
hoping
that something might change
hoping
i will forget
